When we sat down an older couple sat behind us. Vic heard them order a glass of wine, when asked if house wine was okay the wife said "whatever you have, we need it". I wasn't purposely listening to their conversation but it was early so the place was not crowded and I could hear every word they said.
The conversation took me back to one year ago when I was sitting in the doctors office with Brittany and Gin.
The wife was going on about how they at lease didn't talk "stages" today. I wanted to tell her not to have false hopes because that is exactly how it started with Gin and three short months later we would be sitting in a hospital room saying our goodbyes. The husband talked about treatments and surgery and trying to find the good news (finding out soon enough) and that his doctor sounded re-assuring that his wasn't the fast spreading kind. It reminded me of Gins doctor telling us it wasn't all "doom and gloom". No one knows what it will be like and I'm sorry but WHO wasn't it doom and gloom for? It sure was for Gins family, my sister and anyone that loved the man. What a stupid thing for the doctor to say...Brittany brought those words up to me just last week as another anniversary went by without Gin around.
I've never had cancer touch me so personally as it has these last few years. I lost a classmate a year ago, my brother in law 8 months ago and Vic's very best friend is now home with hospice visiting a few times a week, one of my younger sisters classmates just found out she has stage 4 cancer a few months ago..it just seems to be everywhere! At least yesterday on the news there was a ray of hope that they have come out with a drug to help prevent breast cancer...yay for research and new drugs! My wish is that we see a cure in our lifetime.
Sorry to be a downer today..just feeling like life is sometimes so very unfair to some of the nicest people! Cancer sucks. the end