Happy Friday!!!
After waiting all summer for the fall shows to return they are finally here! I calendared all of the dates and times so I wouldn't miss a show. I sat down all excited to watch Parenthood because I wasn't sure that show was coming back and then WAM they bring cancer into the story line. :( I really don't need sad story lines to follow...life has enough of that!
Then there is Grays Anatomy last night...another tear jerker! I guess I could go tune into Honey Boo Boo but it was hard enough to sit thru 10 minutes of that show. I felt like I should run to the phone and call child protective services.
My faithful stand by is my reality tv fix...real housewives of...fill in the blank. The drama on NJ and NY seasons have had Vic and I cracking up..and thinking our lives are pretty dull if this is any indication of how people live.
Even football has had some drama this season. Luckily that is about to end now that footlocker has taken its employees back off the field. Go Cowboys! :)
What are you watching or looking forward to watching? I can't wait for Revenge to come back on...I think that show is brilliant. We watched "Last Resort" last night and it was pretty action packed but I'm not sure how they will make a full season out of it, looked more like a movie.
If you have not checked out Person of Interest yet go do so. We caught re-runs a few months ago and have been hooked. Love that show!
Another show if you have Starz Channel is BOSS with Kelsie Grammar...not my favorite actor but he's excellent in the show. He plays the corrupt mayor of Chicago.
Tell me what you think of these shows!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Politics
I used to say that I had the most supportive family regarding me being in a same sex relationship. I would hear horror stories from my friends of how they were treated by their own flesh and blood. Just recently I was told that a brother told his gay sister not to touch his children because they would get AIDS. Another gay friends family tried to send him to a doctor or church to "fix" him. I was lucky because my family was nice to my partners and I took that as being supportive. I was wrong.
When the owner of Chik fil A said he opposed gay marriage and the media made such a big deal out of it and there was a day everyone was suppose to either boycott the establishment or show support and go, my family went ..and said it was in the spirit of freedom of speech. It didn't matter that the speech was against my rights.
In the day and age of facebook you can't get away from all the political conversations going on. I hardly recognize my father and his hateful rants about Obama and then in the next breath he types about wanting GOD and religion back in our schools, sporting events, etc. How about being more like God and working on making the world a better place. How can someone that taught me so much about the beauty of nature be saying drill baby drill, the man that taught me to see both sides is now not looking at the other side ....Who is this person?!
I respect every ones right to vote for who ever they want, Lord knows I would not want anyone telling me who to vote for. I just wish the lines were not so rigid that the chance of working together and making the world a better place didn't seem so out of the question.
I have always avoided talking about politics. I never really thought who was in office truly mattered much to me. I guess as I've gotten older and am in a group of people that have to fight for the same rights that everyone else gets I have changed. I see the benefits that having Obama as president have made in my life. My partner has finally been able to get insurance where she was unable to in the past because of "pre exisiting conditions".
When I compare the two men running for president the main difference I see is one of them supports me and one does not. It's not just a gay marriage thing...it's having the same rights as every one else. I should not be treated less than while I'm paying the exact same taxes as the married couple next door. We have come so far and I hate to think of starting all over again. And don't even get me started on setting women back by having Romney as president...just look at his church.
When the owner of Chik fil A said he opposed gay marriage and the media made such a big deal out of it and there was a day everyone was suppose to either boycott the establishment or show support and go, my family went ..and said it was in the spirit of freedom of speech. It didn't matter that the speech was against my rights.
In the day and age of facebook you can't get away from all the political conversations going on. I hardly recognize my father and his hateful rants about Obama and then in the next breath he types about wanting GOD and religion back in our schools, sporting events, etc. How about being more like God and working on making the world a better place. How can someone that taught me so much about the beauty of nature be saying drill baby drill, the man that taught me to see both sides is now not looking at the other side ....Who is this person?!
I respect every ones right to vote for who ever they want, Lord knows I would not want anyone telling me who to vote for. I just wish the lines were not so rigid that the chance of working together and making the world a better place didn't seem so out of the question.
I have always avoided talking about politics. I never really thought who was in office truly mattered much to me. I guess as I've gotten older and am in a group of people that have to fight for the same rights that everyone else gets I have changed. I see the benefits that having Obama as president have made in my life. My partner has finally been able to get insurance where she was unable to in the past because of "pre exisiting conditions".
When I compare the two men running for president the main difference I see is one of them supports me and one does not. It's not just a gay marriage thing...it's having the same rights as every one else. I should not be treated less than while I'm paying the exact same taxes as the married couple next door. We have come so far and I hate to think of starting all over again. And don't even get me started on setting women back by having Romney as president...just look at his church.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Update Aug. 27, 2012
I'm not doing very well with my updates. I have a few minutes today so I'm going to try and remember what has been going on since my last post on Aug. 6th. I made a little video of all things Aug. 2012 ...enjoy!
I have not gotten a date for the lap band surgery yet. I did complete my required visits with a psychiatrist (I passed lol) and I have finished my two weeks of eating for life classes. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the dietitian and then another meeting with the surgeon. So many hoops for insurance to cover this. I'm thinking it will happen in October sometime..happy birthday to me!
We've had a little excitement this past weekend with Hurricane Isaac. It was only a tropical storm when it passed our way. We had heavy rain and wind last night but nothing like we thought it might be. Vic and I went out and got some pictures and enjoyed the energy of the storm but it wasn't nearly has bad as Tropical Storm Debby was for us.
I still have not seen my sister. We've talked a few times but that is about it.I'm okay with that too. My dad something to me that made a lot of sense. He said, you get upset and three days later you're still upset and worried about her, she gets over it and goes on doing exactly what she does and three days later she's fine and having another drink...
I have not gotten a date for the lap band surgery yet. I did complete my required visits with a psychiatrist (I passed lol) and I have finished my two weeks of eating for life classes. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the dietitian and then another meeting with the surgeon. So many hoops for insurance to cover this. I'm thinking it will happen in October sometime..happy birthday to me!
We've had a little excitement this past weekend with Hurricane Isaac. It was only a tropical storm when it passed our way. We had heavy rain and wind last night but nothing like we thought it might be. Vic and I went out and got some pictures and enjoyed the energy of the storm but it wasn't nearly has bad as Tropical Storm Debby was for us.
I still have not seen my sister. We've talked a few times but that is about it.I'm okay with that too. My dad something to me that made a lot of sense. He said, you get upset and three days later you're still upset and worried about her, she gets over it and goes on doing exactly what she does and three days later she's fine and having another drink...
Monday, August 6, 2012
Weekly Update Aug. 6
Another super busy week but a much happier week having my dad and his wife visiting from TN.
He's been here six days now and we've crunched so much in so far! We went to Mote Marine on a sea life excursion trip Saturday. Here is a quick video of the day..
Backing up a bit. I had my first visit with the doctor for my psych. evaluation last week. I have to go again this week. Hopefully I'll pass..lol I also started the healthy eating class and learned so much in the first class. I've been trying to change some habits but it has not been easy sticking to the diet plan with company and eating out. This weeks class addresses emotional eating and eating out..wish that would have been last weeks class!
My sister got out of jail and called me first thing this morning. Of course hearing her voice and talking to her for a few minutes just reminded me why I love her so much. As aggravated as she makes me she is still my sister and we will get thru this.
A few pictures from the week
He's been here six days now and we've crunched so much in so far! We went to Mote Marine on a sea life excursion trip Saturday. Here is a quick video of the day..
Backing up a bit. I had my first visit with the doctor for my psych. evaluation last week. I have to go again this week. Hopefully I'll pass..lol I also started the healthy eating class and learned so much in the first class. I've been trying to change some habits but it has not been easy sticking to the diet plan with company and eating out. This weeks class addresses emotional eating and eating out..wish that would have been last weeks class!
My sister got out of jail and called me first thing this morning. Of course hearing her voice and talking to her for a few minutes just reminded me why I love her so much. As aggravated as she makes me she is still my sister and we will get thru this.
A few pictures from the week
Monday, July 23, 2012
Little Sister
Dear Sister,
I have started this letter in my head about a million times.
I am so angry about so many things that I just don't know where to start. I have said the serenity prayer over and over until it just doesn't make any sense at all. I know I can not change you, I try and have faith that you will decide one day that YOU can change you but I really have lost hope that that will happen.
I'm angry that over half your life has been spent with us worrying about you. I am angry that you have not set a better example for your son. I am angry that you are so wrapped up in yourself that you can't be there for me when I need you.
You are 41 years old. You have spent more than half your life not taking care of yourself. You will most likely end up needing someone to take care of you because of your decisions . I can't just pretend like I don't have a younger sister so I know I have more years of worry.
It's sick that the only time I can feel at peace is when you are in jail. It's the only time i don't flashback when helicopters fly over head. It's the only time that I know you are eating and not drinking. It's the only time I don't worry that I'll get a phone call that you've hurt someone or yourself while being drunk/high.
It makes me sad to look at the pain on mom and dads face when they ask me how you are doing because they have distanced themselves so much they don't even call you themselves. It makes me sad to hear the tone of helplessness when they talk about how they wish things were different.
It makes me furious to see your son spinning out of control and posting such crap on facebook knowing he doesn't have anyone in his life showing him an example of what a good, happy, law abiding life is like. He should be enjoying his teen years ..do you remember EVER having to worry about mom and dad fighting or going to jail when we were growing up? NO you didn't. You had a safe, loving home with a family that loved and supported you no matter what.
I wish I could be more like Steph and just turn off the feelings and pretend like everything is just fine on holidays when we all get together. I've tried, that just doesnt work for me. I love you, I miss the good times, the laughter, the sober girl that played cards with me all day long . I miss our inside jokes. I miss you.
There comes a point in life when you get real with yourself. It's been happening for a while now. After Gin died I was there for you. I was with you every day, helping you with the most basic of things. Then one day you decided you'd had enough and went off to the bars. I was home alone. Vic was in California being by her best friends side while she died of cancer. I needed you. I called and got no answer. My sister radar kicked in and I knew just where I'd find you...I drove to the bar and found your car outside. I called again..when I didn't reach you the next day I came by your house to find you hungover, in bed with Mark. You didn't bother to let me know you were ok. My messages were ignored. I realized right then how one sided our relationship has always been. I took a big step back.
We stopped talking everyday. I would only hear from you when you needed money transferred. You couldn't bother to figure out how to do your own banking and why should you...you had me. The fool that always came to your rescue. The idiot that defended and stuck up for you no matter what.
I didn't want to even listen when Mark called last month about you being in jail again. I wanted to hang up and pretend I never took the call. I didn't want to be the "go to" girl that the family contacted to see if anything was new with you. I didn't want to have to tell Dad as he was already in the fight of his life beating cancer. Everyone had opinions, suggestions, advise. I just wanted to put those rose colored glasses on and say "what sister?"
I didn't want to ever visit you in jail again..but I did. twice. I wasn't going to write to you in jail. But I did..twice. My letter wasn't all that nice this time around. You probably wish I wouldn't have sent it..I know, me too.
Know what makes me the maddest? The guilt. I worry and feel guilty that if I'm not there helping you pick up the pieces and try to make things easier on you , you will just give up.
I know your answer will be "I never told you to love me" or worry about me or whatever...you never did understand
it was never a choice.
I do love you little sister..but today I must love you from over...........here.
I have started this letter in my head about a million times.
I am so angry about so many things that I just don't know where to start. I have said the serenity prayer over and over until it just doesn't make any sense at all. I know I can not change you, I try and have faith that you will decide one day that YOU can change you but I really have lost hope that that will happen.
I'm angry that over half your life has been spent with us worrying about you. I am angry that you have not set a better example for your son. I am angry that you are so wrapped up in yourself that you can't be there for me when I need you.
You are 41 years old. You have spent more than half your life not taking care of yourself. You will most likely end up needing someone to take care of you because of your decisions . I can't just pretend like I don't have a younger sister so I know I have more years of worry.
It's sick that the only time I can feel at peace is when you are in jail. It's the only time i don't flashback when helicopters fly over head. It's the only time that I know you are eating and not drinking. It's the only time I don't worry that I'll get a phone call that you've hurt someone or yourself while being drunk/high.
It makes me sad to look at the pain on mom and dads face when they ask me how you are doing because they have distanced themselves so much they don't even call you themselves. It makes me sad to hear the tone of helplessness when they talk about how they wish things were different.
It makes me furious to see your son spinning out of control and posting such crap on facebook knowing he doesn't have anyone in his life showing him an example of what a good, happy, law abiding life is like. He should be enjoying his teen years ..do you remember EVER having to worry about mom and dad fighting or going to jail when we were growing up? NO you didn't. You had a safe, loving home with a family that loved and supported you no matter what.
I wish I could be more like Steph and just turn off the feelings and pretend like everything is just fine on holidays when we all get together. I've tried, that just doesnt work for me. I love you, I miss the good times, the laughter, the sober girl that played cards with me all day long . I miss our inside jokes. I miss you.
There comes a point in life when you get real with yourself. It's been happening for a while now. After Gin died I was there for you. I was with you every day, helping you with the most basic of things. Then one day you decided you'd had enough and went off to the bars. I was home alone. Vic was in California being by her best friends side while she died of cancer. I needed you. I called and got no answer. My sister radar kicked in and I knew just where I'd find you...I drove to the bar and found your car outside. I called again..when I didn't reach you the next day I came by your house to find you hungover, in bed with Mark. You didn't bother to let me know you were ok. My messages were ignored. I realized right then how one sided our relationship has always been. I took a big step back.
We stopped talking everyday. I would only hear from you when you needed money transferred. You couldn't bother to figure out how to do your own banking and why should you...you had me. The fool that always came to your rescue. The idiot that defended and stuck up for you no matter what.
I didn't want to even listen when Mark called last month about you being in jail again. I wanted to hang up and pretend I never took the call. I didn't want to be the "go to" girl that the family contacted to see if anything was new with you. I didn't want to have to tell Dad as he was already in the fight of his life beating cancer. Everyone had opinions, suggestions, advise. I just wanted to put those rose colored glasses on and say "what sister?"
I didn't want to ever visit you in jail again..but I did. twice. I wasn't going to write to you in jail. But I did..twice. My letter wasn't all that nice this time around. You probably wish I wouldn't have sent it..I know, me too.
Know what makes me the maddest? The guilt. I worry and feel guilty that if I'm not there helping you pick up the pieces and try to make things easier on you , you will just give up.
I know your answer will be "I never told you to love me" or worry about me or whatever...you never did understand
it was never a choice.
I do love you little sister..but today I must love you from over...........here.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Weekly Update July 22 2012
I feel like this was such a stressful week. We had work issues with cleaners and not just on one property but on several. Had to let some go, warn others and hire some new ones. It really stinks that we can put so much time and attention into managing a property and lose it over something we don't control (how good of a job the cleaning teams do) ..anyway...we survived and learned some lessons and will be making the necessary changes so it doesnt ever happen again.
I did have some positive news this week. I found out my dad is coming to visit in August!
My sister will be out of jail in August (another long story that I have chosen not to blog about ..yet) I had my "meet the surgeon" this week and am anxious to get everything done so I can have my surgery.I'm a little disappointed that it won't happen as quickly as I thought it would. I am guessing/hoping by October I'll be ready for surgery. I got my first doctor visit in already, and called the doctor for the psych evaluation but she's gone until Tuesday so that will hopefully happen next week. My food/nutrition classes don't start until August so I have to sit back and wait for that. So much of the process is just waiting things out. Drives.Me.Crazy.
We did have a wonderful time out last night with friends. Everytime we do this we come away saying that we must do it more often. I hope we do. Good friends should never be taken for granted! Thank you Lisa, Kim,Del and Karen for always being so easy to be with.
I also got good news from my ex that we got an offer on our house! I hope this ones goes thru and we can be done with that chapter of our lives. I miss that house and loved it very much but have felt for many years now that if I couldn't live in it I didn't really want him to either...that may or may not be a good way to think but it is what it is.
I am going to take a deep breath, talk Vic into going to the beach today and try to recharge for next week.
Before I go I send out prayers to all involved in the terrible movie theater shooting Friday in Colorado. I can't even wrap my brain around how someone does that...:(
Here a few pictures I took this week. Something I saw at my doctors office, a wonderful dish from Tropical Thai Restaurant in Sarasota, and a few pictures we took while junk shopping at Sarasota Salvage...a very cool place!!
I did have some positive news this week. I found out my dad is coming to visit in August!
My sister will be out of jail in August (another long story that I have chosen not to blog about ..yet) I had my "meet the surgeon" this week and am anxious to get everything done so I can have my surgery.I'm a little disappointed that it won't happen as quickly as I thought it would. I am guessing/hoping by October I'll be ready for surgery. I got my first doctor visit in already, and called the doctor for the psych evaluation but she's gone until Tuesday so that will hopefully happen next week. My food/nutrition classes don't start until August so I have to sit back and wait for that. So much of the process is just waiting things out. Drives.Me.Crazy.
We did have a wonderful time out last night with friends. Everytime we do this we come away saying that we must do it more often. I hope we do. Good friends should never be taken for granted! Thank you Lisa, Kim,Del and Karen for always being so easy to be with.
I also got good news from my ex that we got an offer on our house! I hope this ones goes thru and we can be done with that chapter of our lives. I miss that house and loved it very much but have felt for many years now that if I couldn't live in it I didn't really want him to either...that may or may not be a good way to think but it is what it is.
I am going to take a deep breath, talk Vic into going to the beach today and try to recharge for next week.
Before I go I send out prayers to all involved in the terrible movie theater shooting Friday in Colorado. I can't even wrap my brain around how someone does that...:(
Here a few pictures I took this week. Something I saw at my doctors office, a wonderful dish from Tropical Thai Restaurant in Sarasota, and a few pictures we took while junk shopping at Sarasota Salvage...a very cool place!!
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| Tropical Thai in Sarasota |
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